Today is .... actually Everyday is my bad day. I hate to be back in barker. (honestly from bottom of my heart) i hate myself for screwing up my O'level (very bad). Seems like im unwanted in this skool due to my horrendous results but im accepted bcz of my excellent conduct in skool (no bad records). IK keeps rubbing in tt the skool (mr peh) doesnt want to take me in back.

IK everyday ask me stay back during Recess (i dun care) than after skool (today released at 5pm) to NOT do extra work but do HER work. so i go skool to study OR do teachers work? the skool pay her for my work... nice... today she make do her stuff and DARE TELL ME im IRRESPONSIBLE. Wtf!! not my fault tt the skool ntrix is fucking gay rite, the way a O'LEVEL student need to know this shit. If i tell her i dun want to do, she will scold me + keep saying im irresponsible and i will go ITE next year. (she tell me 2 times this year alrdy). Like wtf la. she ask me do than later push me aside n do other stuff and get bak to me very late. i cut inbetween kena scold about going ITE. really la... im already FUCKING depressed tt i must repeat my O'level. I feel like a loser, good for nothing. than she rub 10 gallons of salt on me. i always want to slap her BUT i give her respect because she is older than me, she is a teacher and my parents did not raise me like that.

ok, enuff of IK. the other person i hate, JAG. he such a bastard la. MYE coming soon, end april. 3 weeks. He fucking stilll not serious about studying. can go watch Chinese movie "THREE KINGDOMS" today (7/4). tmr (8/4) got napha 5 stations. gona fail anyway. 2.4km already fail. If this continues, i tink he might end up in ITE again.. =( he already disappoint his parents very badly.

I just cant la.. i just cant tolerate anymore. i cant believe it, why do i even exist? make my parents suffer? just an additional contributing to the demise of the world.. i got no reason for my existence.